depressing times cause nothing at all to happen, even though i want to

And the road urghs on

Yeah, urgh! Vacation time has been over for a week, and besides a birthday party in the family, nothing big has been going on that week. It still feels a bit like that vacation time though, where I got nothing done. I think I’m having one of those meh-phases, where nothing is fun, and nothing grabs my attention. I want to do so much stuff, but I get nothing done…

I was thinking, maybe it’s the fault of FFXIV. Maybe I play too much? But I actually don’t think that’s the case. It helps me release a lot of stress, and I have no issues logging off when I don’t feel like playing anymore. Also, I’m quite efficient, and get a lot done in no time, so it’s not like I need to log in every darn day, which I don’t.

I’m behind on everything else though. Mails, Instagram, and even surveys. Yes, I get money for surveys, but I often start them 1 or 2 days too late, and miss out on them, because at the time they roll in, I just don’t feel like it. It’s actually pretty stupid. And Instagram… I don’t know, it bores me, or at least to some extent. I still like to post an image on my Colorpieces account, but it requires me to actually create something, and I haven’t done that in a while, although I started on a necklace some days ago. I’m waiting on a package from Pandahall though, with tons of materials for various ideas I’ve had for a while, so maybe that will get me going? I hope so myself!

There are also the many photos from the product photoshoot. I’m not really satisfied with them, but they’re all I have, and I was at some point doing my best to make them look good, but that also just stopped. I should really get my act together and finish that project! At the birthday party last week, my mother in law started chatting with others about my jewelry shop, and I was just like “Yeah, about that…”. I felt lazy and really bad about myself.

My overall issue is though, that I have too many balls in the air. I still have Bakura and chapter 2 roaming around inside my head, but maybe I should just stop thinking about those, and get going with the thing people expect me to finish first; the shop. Not that I usually give a rats ass about what people expect of me, but I want this for myself, and I want to get it done before the summer is over! I WANT TO!!!

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