I never have any. I wish I did, because I have tons of stuff that I want to improve about myself, or with what I do, but… Hm, I don’t know. Maybe it’s always the fear of failing, and thinking I’m a bad person for not reaching a goal. Or maybe it’s because I can never really come up with anything solid, because I don’t need to lose weight, am not smoking, don’t drink, and don’t want to give up my fast food that I occasionally eat. I’m listing those, because they are some of the most common goals for the new year. So why write about it?
Well, I’ve decided that I really want to do something about my habits of starting a project, and then either work sooo slooow that it feels like it’s just standing still, stop working on it for several months, or quit it altogether because other things start occupying my mind while taking a break. I realized that when I started thinking about how I’d love to make wooden frames for my boyfriend’s photos, and whoop! I was already looking on the net to find a place where I could eventually buy scrap wood. But seriously, I suck at working with wood, and I already have a bucket full of driftwood that I don’t use (but eventually, maybe in 2020, I will). My brain is already stuffed with work that I never get done, and yet I had the enthusiasm to want to make this new project a reality. And I still do… Fuck my brain…
My boyfriend says he’s happy that I have so many things that I want to do, because it helps me stay busy while being early retired. I understand his point, because a lot of people who retire early become bored and depressive if they have no hobby. But what if you have all the time in the world, and still too much to do? Too many hobbies? Hm, probably. Do I want to stop any of them? Hell no! I want to keep playing FFXIV! I want to keep making jewelry! I want to keep drawing (those 3 times a year it happens)! And I want to keep writing my light novel! Okay, looking at those 4 things, they seem doable. I want to stick with those 4 things as my main projects. Is FFXIV even a project…? Meh, I guess it is, to me at least.
Looking back over the past few months, what have I done with those 4 projects? Well, I do play FFXIV a whole lot, because it’s fun to be back in the game again after 1½ years, and it’s a wonderful stress relief (although my post about being a tank states otherwise). I do feel a decline in enthusiasm now though, as I mainly do daily and weekly stuff, and feel quite content when having that done. Also, I still create jewelry, but it’s also still a major blow not having a return address to open the shop with. It’s not keeping me from doing what I love though! And drawing… Well, I’m looking around for a good drawing tablet, one with an in-build monitor, because my old laptop is getting really slow and painful to work with. So yeah, I’d really like to draw some more, but need to save up for the equipment I want first. Lastly, there’s the light novel. In all honesty, I’ve not worked on it since I finished chapter 2, but I am thinking about it every day, and still come up with ideas for it, so it’s a work in progress, but in my head right now. I also started working on another novel for fun, because…
…I want to scrap some other projects! Yeah, that other light novel I’ve started is my RPG world I’ll never get to do anyway. It’s nice to escape my main story, and to work on something that’s not so big. It was a relief when I finished chapter 1 of the new story, and it gave me some fresh energy. Also, I’m not going to continue doing adoptables on DA, at least not right now. So I’ve moved my designs to Redbubble instead, where they are available as merchandise like stickers, phone cases, t-shirts, pillows, notebooks and whatnot! I will most likely also add them to my Society6 account, but it was quite exhausting getting them all ready for Redbubble, so I’ll skip that for now, sorry. (EDIT: Okay, added the ones that I could. Since the sizes are rather small, Society6 doesn’t allow prints on many items though.)
On top of scrapping projects, I also want to worry less about some other things, so I’m deleting my goals like reading all Sherlock Holmes books again, drawing all my light novel characters, and stuff like that from my to-do list. Yeah, I actually update it now and then, and didn’t just make it for fun! So my New Year’s resolutions for 2018 will be on that list, which I will continue to update. I will also add some sub-goals for when I don’t want to work on my main projects. It’s good to have small goals too, to boost your self-confidence while working towards the big ones 🙂
And while writing this, I actually just remembered, that I did have a resolution for this year! It was to waste less food, because I felt bad about how much food went into the trash. It’s been a good goal, and I do think our household is wasting a lot less food now than last year. Not saying we threw out tons of food before that, but we’ve gotten better at using leftovers, and planning ahead when cooking. We very rarely throw anything away now, and I’m proud of that!
The new to-do list can be found here already. Fingers crossed that I can keep it up!
Do you have any goals for the new year? 🙂