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New Year’s Resolutions

I never have any. I wish I did, because I have tons of stuff that I want to improve about myself, or with what I do, but… Hm, I don’t know. Maybe it’s always the fear of failing, and thinking I’m a bad person for not reaching a goal. Or maybe it’s because I can never really come up with anything solid, because I don’t need to lose weight, am not smoking, don’t drink, and don’t want to give up my fast food that I occasionally eat. I’m listing those, because they are some of the most common goals for the new year. So why write about it?

Well, I’ve decided that I really want to do something about my habits of starting a project, and then either work sooo slooow that it feels like it’s just standing still, stop working on it for several months, or quit it altogether because other things start occupying my mind while taking a break. I realized that when I started thinking about how I’d love to make wooden frames for my boyfriend’s photos, and whoop! I was already looking on the net to find a place where I could eventually buy scrap wood. But seriously, I suck at working with wood, and I already have a bucket full of driftwood that I don’t use (but eventually, maybe in 2020, I will). My brain is already stuffed with work that I never get done, and yet I had the enthusiasm to want to make this new project a reality. And I still do… Fuck my brain…

My boyfriend says he’s happy that I have so many things that I want to do, because it helps me stay busy while being early retired. I understand his point, because a lot of people who retire early become bored and depressive if they have no hobby. But what if you have all the time in the world, and still too much to do? Too many hobbies? Hm, probably. Do I want to stop any of them? Hell no! I want to keep playing FFXIV! I want to keep making jewelry! I want to keep drawing (those 3 times a year it happens)! And I want to keep writing my light novel! Okay, looking at those 4 things, they seem doable. I want to stick with those 4 things as my main projects. Is FFXIV even a project…? Meh, I guess it is, to me at least.

Looking back over the past few months, what have I done with those 4 projects? Well, I do play FFXIV a whole lot, because it’s fun to be back in the game again after 1½ years, and it’s a wonderful stress relief (although my post about being a tank states otherwise). I do feel a decline in enthusiasm now though, as I mainly do daily and weekly stuff, and feel quite content when having that done. Also, I still create jewelry, but it’s also still a major blow not having a return address to open the shop with. It’s not keeping me from doing what I love though! And drawing… Well, I’m looking around for a good drawing tablet, one with an in-build monitor, because my old laptop is getting really slow and painful to work with. So yeah, I’d really like to draw some more, but need to save up for the equipment I want first. Lastly, there’s the light novel. In all honesty, I’ve not worked on it since I finished chapter 2, but I am thinking about it every day, and still come up with ideas for it, so it’s a work in progress, but in my head right now. I also started working on another novel for fun, because…

…I want to scrap some other projects! Yeah, that other light novel I’ve started is my RPG world I’ll never get to do anyway. It’s nice to escape my main story, and to work on something that’s not so big. It was a relief when I finished chapter 1 of the new story, and it gave me some fresh energy. Also, I’m not going to continue doing adoptables on DA, at least not right now. So I’ve moved my designs to Redbubble instead, where they are available as merchandise like stickers, phone cases, t-shirts, pillows, notebooks and whatnot! I will most likely also add them to my Society6 account, but it was quite exhausting getting them all ready for Redbubble, so I’ll skip that for now, sorry. (EDIT: Okay, added the ones that I could. Since the sizes are rather small, Society6 doesn’t allow prints on many items though.)

On top of scrapping projects, I also want to worry less about some other things, so I’m deleting my goals like reading all Sherlock Holmes books again, drawing all my light novel characters, and stuff like that from my to-do list. Yeah, I actually update it now and then, and didn’t just make it for fun! So my New Year’s resolutions for 2018 will be on that list, which I will continue to update. I will also add some sub-goals for when I don’t want to work on my main projects. It’s good to have small goals too, to boost your self-confidence while working towards the big ones 🙂

And while writing this, I actually just remembered, that I did have a resolution for this year! It was to waste less food, because I felt bad about how much food went into the trash. It’s been a good goal, and I do think our household is wasting a lot less food now than last year. Not saying we threw out tons of food before that, but we’ve gotten better at using leftovers, and planning ahead when cooking. We very rarely throw anything away now, and I’m proud of that!

The new to-do list can be found here already. Fingers crossed that I can keep it up!

Do you have any goals for the new year? 🙂

I want so much, but do too little

Posting from my newly repaired PC again. Hope it works this time, as I can’t take it anymore! That’s not what this post is about though. It’s about the goals that I have set for myself, but fail to really reach. I think everyone experiences this, though it might not always be the person’s own fault when the goal is not being reached. I am at fault for my own fails though, and I want to change that!

First off, it’s not a secret that I have a lot of hobbies. I enjoy having something to do, and I often choose one hobby over the other, depending on my mood and energy. Though it feels good having something to choose from, it feels absolutely horrible when I can’t complete something. It’s because I jump too much between my hobbies. While I get some seashells ready for being painted during the first half of the day, I might end up cutting images for bookmarks during the other half. This recently resulted in our table being filled with stuff for both activities, and I felt stressed because of that.

So, while I enjoy doing both things, I shouldn’t do them both at the same time. I can’t help it though, and that’s what I want to change! I want to complete one thing before I start the next, so that’s my new main goal. I started out completing the bookmarks I began creating in December, and it felt so wonderful, that after painting the seashells that also filled the table, I began making even more bookmarks, which I will finish before doing anything else. Babysteps.

I’m also really good at getting stuck in front of YouTube and Netflix, binge watching various series and how-to videos, as well as those annoyingly hypnotizing toplists about shit that no one really needs to know. I need to stop doing that! Watching one or two episodes of New Girl is enough! I don’t need to watch five episodes, do I? No! I just re-watched all episodes of Modern Family, and now that I think about how I could have completed reading The Divine Comedy instead, or drawing my Kan’i, or write chapter one of my story, or basically everything that’s on my to-do list, I feel horrible.

In my head, I’ve multiple times used the excuse, that it’s hard doing something without a working PC with internet. While that is true for some of my goals, like opening my Storenvy shop, it’s just a really bad excuse in most cases. I don’t need the PC to read a book that’s actually lying right in front of me. I also don’t need the PC to draw something, as I use my laptop for that. Writing is easier at the PC, because it has a newer version of Word, but it’s not really essential when just typing a draft that I need to edit later anyway.

And then there’s the mobile game trap. Boy, do I spend a lot of time on my mobile games now, it’s ridiculous! I only play Sid Story and Otogi after deleting tons of games that swallowed my time, but it seems the time I wanted to save by deleting those other games, is now just being spent on those two instead. And while I’m on the phone already, I also check Toluna every five minutes, because why not. Sure, I get a bit of money from being on Toluna, but I’d not lose anything, if I just checked it a few times a day instead.

*sigh* These are my issues, and the reason for never getting anything done, or rather completed. I need to spend less time in front of the TV, and waaay less time on my phone. Phew, well anyway, as mentioned above, I have been completing some stuff. I don’t have a photo of the seashells that I completed, but as they look almost the same as the ones I did last time, I don’t think it matters, does it? But here are the bookmarks I made!

From my private Instagram account.
From my private Instagram account.

On top of that, I’ve edited the tiny piece of chapter one I had written a while ago, and posted the first few lines of it on Instagram. I tell you, it made at least five followers run away from me, haha! It’s a personal account though, where I post personal stuff, so deal with it. I have also unfollowed over 20 accounts, as I have noticed how the really big accounts swallow up the smaller ones. I hate how Instagram decides for me what posts should be at the top of my feed, but by only following a few accounts, I’m sure not to miss what I really want to see. FU IG!

From my private Instagram account.
From my private Instagram account.

And on a side note! Mommy here got a new blender, a sandwich maker, and some very pretty glasses last week! And do you wanna know what I paid for all that? 0! Zip! Nothing! I bought them with points from YouGov, where I take surveys regularly. It feels good when collecting points finally pays off. Wanna know more about surveys? Read my article about them here.

I’m sorry for the long post this time, just had to get some things out of my system. My next post will be a review of Yuri!!! on Ice, which I really enjoyed binge watching. And since it’s now springtime, I’m thinking about writing an article about collecting and preserving some materials for do-it-yourself projects, that nature provides us with 🙂