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Lazy roads to nowhere

Or, well, not to nowhere, but it sometimes feels like it, haha. Anyway, my grandmother’s funeral is over, her will is known to her children, and they are all three working together on it. I’m glad they managed to figure out what to do without the help of a lawyer, like I’m used to when someone dies in this family. I don’t know much about the will, and quite frankly, I don’t care much, as I’m just a grandchild, but according to my mom, it was very specific, which was to be expected of my very well organized grandmother.

Few days after her death though, I got a letter from DR1, the biggest TV station in Denmark, and I had no clue what they wanted from me. Opening the letter and reading the first few lines made it very clear though; my father was trying to contact me through a show called “Aldrig for sent” (Never too late), and it made my piss boil. I don’t want to explain in every detail why I don’t want to have anything to do with that idiot, but my mom has tried to make it very clear to him over the past 11 years, that he’s to stay away from us. The problem is though, that he’s a dense motherfucker, who doesn’t give a shit about what other people think or feel. So yeah, this was just another one of his awkward attempts at wanting to include me in his pitiful life, with his stupid ass wife and mother, who fit him so well. When someone says that you cannot choose your family, I always say “Yes you can!”, and I’m choosing not to acknowledge this fucker even exists. If only he’d have enough brain cells to actually accept that, and stop wasting time on pursuing me. Anyway, I called the TV station and told them the truth about him, and that they should not help a maniac on the loose. Sounded like it was not the first time someone tried to contact people who wanted nothing to do with them through that show, so the woman on the other end was very understanding, and would call my father to let him know he is not wanted. I wonder what he comes up with next…

Sooo, I also called the shop from where we got this problem child of a PC, because I keep having issues with FFXIV, as some stuff isn’t loading properly, and the graphics are actually worse than on the 11 year old PC we parted with for this piece of trash. Turns out we didn’t get what we ordered last year, and it finally shows now that I’m using the PC for what I wanted to. My boyfriend told them to build a PC that could handle FFXIV specifically, so that I wouldn’t have to choose between graphics or performance. They promised him (and still do) that this is a gamer PC, and it can handle FFXIV without any issues. Well, that’s a downright lie. Now they want us to drop off the PC at their shop (again, again, again, again, again) for them to check what is wrong with it, but we know how it ends. One week without a PC, and then we get it back with them saying, that it’s working as intended, and the problem must be in our end. I was even yelled at when I called them last month, before I could even explain what my issue was. My boyfriend then asked a colleague at work for advice, and he gave us the address of a website, where you can check if your PC is able to run a specific game, and if not, what needs to be changed in order for it to work. I ran the check at home, and of course it ended up telling me, that this PC can’t even handle FFXIV on minimum settings. The graphics card is simply shit, and not made for gaming. At that point, I had gotten a mail from the shop, that they were having a sale this weekend, and that I could get new parts at their event. Yeah, sell me parts because you didn’t deliver? No thanks! Needless to say, that we’re done with their bullshit, and that we’ll buy parts elsewhere. I’ll get a new graphics card, and then put 32MB RAM (or, well, we’ll see *lol*) into this piece of trash, and then get rid of the problem child nickname it’s had for over a year now. I’ll make that PC shine brighter than the sun! And then get a new monitor too, because I need it…

While being on the topic, the PC can miraculously still play FFXIV, even with the issues I have, and I managed to reach my goal of all lvl 60! I’ve still not stepped into Stormblood territory, and probably won’t until I’ve got new parts for the PC, but I’m still having lots of fun. I leveled Red Mage as the last class, and it felt so weird when I reached lvl 60 on it. Nowhere to go from now, but… Crafting! The screenshot is already a bit old, as my Astrologian is lvl 65 now, and all crafting skills somewhere between 50 and 53. My next goal is to empty my bags and retainers as much as possible, so I’ll be able to loot new stuff in Stormblood, without having storage issues. Crafting is expensive though, especially when you’re so shit at it as I am, so I’m only moving very slowly, since I’m a cheap ass Scrooge who doesn’t like wasting her Gil on gear and materials. At first, my biggest issue was getting shards though, but I found a solid solution to that. I’m planning on making a tutorial for shard farming here (for some odd reason), so I won’t get into that now.

Switching topic, I’m also crafting a bit in real life again, and am better at it with my real hands than my gamer hands. I got my package from Pandahall a while ago, and did some chainmaille jewelry crafting for the fun of it. I really like working with jumprings, and would like to buy more in different colors someday. It takes hours of work to create a simple bracelet though, so I’ve only made 2 so far (partially because of all the shit of the past 2 weeks). I can show you one of them, as the other one is a gift for my FC leader Y’neea. Well, they’re both on Instagram, but you can look at the other one yourself if you really want to.

From my Instagram.

I’ve still not opened the shop, and I’m annoying myself with my laziness *sigh* However! I completed chapter 2 of my novel, and even posted my weird little piece I made while taking a break on Wattpad. I might write more stupid stuff like that and post it on there, but we’ll see. I plan on finishing Bakura too, but am not in a hurry with that one, so if I complete it before 2018, I’d be happy. Also, I got some nice books at a flea market last weekend, and would really like to read more again, especially since 2 of them were written by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle! The first thing I did though, was ripping jewelry apart and clean everything, then pop it all into tiny bags. Oh my gosh, I have so many funny beads now, thanks to that flea market, haha! Aaalso, I’m almost done watching the first season of Little Witch Academia, but it’s hard concentrating on it, when also wanting to watch Kakegurui. I don’t care what people say about that show, I find it very funny, but I’ll elaborate on that when the final episode has aired, and I can write a review here. It’s been a while since my last anime review. Not good! Gotta watch more anime!

Okay, this is already a really long post, but I’ve not written (nor done) anything noteworthy for a while, so whatever 😀

Blah

Stupid title, I know, but that’s how I feel these days. Blah! I don’t feel like I’m getting anything done, and quite frankly; I ain’t! I’ve not gotten a single step further with chapter 2, and neither have I done much about the Bakura lineart. With ‘not done much’, I mean that I have indeed made the lineart, but only the flat one, and my plan was to play with them in Inkscape this month. Well, I guess there’s still time to do that, but let’s see…

What annoys me the most right now though is, that my boyfriend has been promising me to help with product photos for… Uhm, a long time now. I wanted to open my shop back in April, but there’s still nothing at all uploaded to my Storenvy account. I’ve asked him to at least leave the camera with the needed settings when he leaves for work, so that I can play with it myself, and maybe get a few good photos out of it, but… Nooo! He wants to do it himself, which is never gonna happen. It just isn’t. So I’m back to having to take some photos myself, and it seems like it’s gonna be with the phone… What a downfall.

So yeah, I played with the lightbox today, and since I don’t want to use the old Nikon camera, and he has his Olympus settings on black and white, I grabbed my phone to see how that went. It’s just about as good as taking photos with the old Nikon, which means that it’s shit. The lightbox is also not worth much, as it gives just about the same light as the sun, meaning that the background that was supposed to be white, is now once again grey. So I’m quite pissed right now. I hate when people promise you something, and in the end it seems like they just did it to make you shut up for a while, until the topic is being brought up again. Tomorrow he can leave his Olympus with the right settings for product photography, or he can spend the entire Sunday helping me out with what he promised me back at the beginning of the year.

Another thing that annoys me is my current Instagram contest. There are still only 2 people signed up for it, and they don’t really seem aware of the fact, that I am giving away a piece of jewelry that they themselves can customize. I have extended it by 7 days, so it will be over tomorrow, with no change at all. It makes me sad, and not wanting to start the contest I had originally planned for when I open my new shop. I guess I’ll just send the winner a message in 2 days, telling them that they can’t paint those darn seashells, as they are shit tiny, and that it’s okay of they don’t want to win the bottle after all. I just don’t get why people want to try and paint them, when I wrote in the description that they are TINY, and that it’s a BOTTLE CHARM. What is so hard to understand about that?

So these days, I’m mostly just sitting on the couch, browsing the internet with my phone, playing Lake Kindred on Gaia, doing absolutely shit, while being constantly reminded why I hate to rely on other people. Instead of thinking “If I can’t do it myself, I should ask for help”, I’m just starting to think “If I can’t do it, then I shouldn’t try in the first place”. Because if I fail to do something on my own, at least I can only blame myself, right? Now, I could of course go and write some more on chapter 2, or play with the lineart of Bakura, but to be honest, I don’t feel like it at all. The thought of all the other things I need done drag me down, and I already have a depression, so fuck everything. Or, well, I did buy a necklace 2 days ago for 5kr (0,67€), pulled it apart yesterday, cleaned all the parts, and got some new ideas for stuff. It was fun, and much needed, but it just wasn’t enough…

What now? Well, I just had my boyfriend on the phone while writing this, and I told him that I want the photos done ASAP, and that I want to take the photos myself, because else nothing will ever happen. So let’s see if he really leaves the Olympus ready for me tomorrow, for me to finally get some shit done. If the background turns out grey, my head will explode, and I’ll break something. But let’s see.

To end this negative nonsense on a more positive note… A friend has made a sticker set for Line, and it’s really cute. So go check it out if you have Line, and purchase it if you like it! Click the image to go to the official Line Store. (image used with the owners permission)

Demon-elf Girl by Majo
Demon-elf Girl by Majo

I hate lifestyle photos

Or, well, I don’t. But I do hate staged ones, and they seem to be taking over the net to the point where it’s not possible to escape them, even if you try. So yeah, I’m sorry, but this is going to be a hate post. What made me want to let out steam on this topic is, that I’ve got a depression these weeks, and it’s especially bad right now, where I tend to just stay in bed until 2pm, and of course I spend some of that time on Instagram. And there they are…

I don’t even follow any accounts that post staged lifestyle photos, or well, I follow one, because I (somewhat) know the person who runs it. But really, I mainly follow accounts with bunnies, dogs, crafting, drawing and private friends who post whatever shit they feel like, just like I do. Yet, when I hit that explore button, I see them, those staged lifestyle photos that make me want to vomit all over the account they come from.

What I mean with staged is, that they are unnatural in every way possible, yet they are still being posted as some sort of proof of a lifestyle that the poster is obviously not part of. It’s downright disgusting, and a direct lie. I’ve never understood the need to stage yourself up for others on the internet. People you don’t know, and will never meet. Why fish for their compliments? Why try to make them jealous of a life you are not even living?

I recently watched a YouTube video that shows what I mean, and if you have 3 minutes to spare, I recommend watching it, so I’ll just drop it here.

 

See what I mean? Now, I’ve got nothing against wanting to look good in a profile photo and the like, but this is just too much.

What do I think when I see staged lifestyle photos on Instagram and the like? Well, as an example, if a person keeps posting food from cafés and restaurants, I think that this poor idiot must be too dumb to cook up a delicious looking meal him/herself, and feels the need to let others do it for him/her in order to get likes from strangers for something he/she didn’t do. Fake much? We have a saying here for behavior like that; to crown yourself with the laurels of other people.

I also hate beach photos with feet or legs on them. Seriously? You could be anyone, and do not prove anything! And when will people stop posting 10 selfies a day? I never know if the person is madly in love with him/herself, or has so little confidence, that they need other people’s approval of their looks. It’s gone beyond that nowadays though, as people make their friends take photos of them in various poses, just to post even more of themselves. And all those girls and young women who are practically naked in front of a mirror when taking a selfie… Please give me your addresses, so I can stop by and hammer a few things into your empty heads!

*sigh* Oh well, in the end, we are all allowed to post whatever we like, no? But we are also entitled to think what we want about the things we don’t like, and I felt the need to think very loud about this. What concerns me the most though is, that the internet never forgets… And that the stupidity of man is as infinite as the universe. Thanks Einstein!